I am too grown up. Somewhere along my path of life, I completely left the child behind. She reaches out to me sometimes, and every once in a while I can smile at her. Mostly, I forget about her. Sometimes, I mourn her loss, because I can't seem to find her when I need her most.
I am guilty of "Do what I say, not what I do." I realized this, when I told my daughter that she doesn't get to eat whatever she wants when she grows up and then I ate a large bowl of ice cream at midnight.
I cry too much. If I'm too happy, sad, stressed, PMS, angry (which is really not good when trying to voice your anger to someone through tears.)
I'm terribly insecure. About almost everything. No, about everything.
I'm an incredible actress.
I'm a lot like Alice in Wonderland.... "I give myself very good advice, though I very rarely follow it."
I miss California. I miss California. I miss California. I know I'm supposed to make the best of where I am with what I have, blah blah blah blah. Shut up. I miss California.
I love to make people smile and laugh. I write not a bit of humor.
I learned patience from my kids.....writing has unlearned it. Yes, total demolition of grammar, I did it on purpose.
I'm afraid to admit when I am unhappy. How silly is that?
Somber post today, I know. Perhaps it's a side effect of nano. I've been writing daily, steadily for two months now. I practiced in October, you know. And I had no clue how draining it would be on my poor little brain. I am not smarter than a 5th grader.
What confessions weigh on your mind? What do you do when you feel drained from something that normally gives you such joy? Am I wrong about my passion?
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Saturday, November 21, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Are You Kidding Me?
So, I had this clever little post all planned out for today. I was going to make you laugh, and cry. I had powerful points of observation, I .... Okay, it wasn't that good. But, I'm going to have to postpone (heh heh) that for another day.
Today, I'm mad. Madder than a hornet. Mad and totally and completely in shock.
When people ask me where I'm from, I tell them Northern California. (I mean NORTHERN like, above Sacramento) I currently reside in Tennessee and after the football performance on Sunday, I doubt I'll have any pride in stating that I live in Tennessee. Not just because the Titans have had a bad year. I'm a die hard Bronco's fan too and they haven't been to the Super Bowl (or any bowl) in a long while. I'm not ashamed of them.
On Sunday, the Tennessee Titans went to Buffalo and beat the Bills. After the Titans' recent losing streak, it's obvious they would celebrate their victory. What I found appalling was not behavior of players dancing, high fiving and jumping in the air, nor the coach with a big smile on his face. The person that behaved like a total ass? The owner! OWNER. Did you read that correctly?
Yes, the man with the millions, the one who doesn't have to run down the field and get knocked over by three burly men, showed his ass by flipping the bird to the Buffalo Bills, the players, the coaches, the FANS. And he didn't just throw one middle finger out in the air. Oh no, TWO...he double F*U'd the whole stadium. And then....oh yes, THEN, he proceeded to shake them in the air, over the balcony of his posh seats, for a couple of minutes, at least.
I'm not exactly offended because of his middle fingers. I'm no goody two shoes and have been known to fly off the handle with a finger or even some choice words. I'm not going to lie to you. However, I tend to not do this to millions of fans....or at meetings....or at work....
The NFL fined him a hefty fee, 1/4 of a million dollars. Good. Now, what else?? I mean, honestly, would we still have representation if we flipped double birds at our agents? Hell no! Would people want to buy our books if they heard we flipped off other authors that made it to the bestseller list? I don't think the owner should still be an owner if you want to know the truth. I don't know how all of the behind the scenes business stuff works for NFL, but I do know that flipping off a stadium full of people is not good business practice.
What kind of role model is that for our athletically inclined children? People want to know what happened to our generation of kids....well....LOOK AT THE EXAMPLES THEY HAVE!
I for one, will never be a fan of the Titans nor will I buy any of their product logos. I lost all respect for the entire team because of the actions of one man. Is that fair? No. Is it how the world works? Yup. Should an 86 year old man that owns a football team think of such repercussions? Absolutely!
Today, I'm mad. Madder than a hornet. Mad and totally and completely in shock.
When people ask me where I'm from, I tell them Northern California. (I mean NORTHERN like, above Sacramento) I currently reside in Tennessee and after the football performance on Sunday, I doubt I'll have any pride in stating that I live in Tennessee. Not just because the Titans have had a bad year. I'm a die hard Bronco's fan too and they haven't been to the Super Bowl (or any bowl) in a long while. I'm not ashamed of them.
On Sunday, the Tennessee Titans went to Buffalo and beat the Bills. After the Titans' recent losing streak, it's obvious they would celebrate their victory. What I found appalling was not behavior of players dancing, high fiving and jumping in the air, nor the coach with a big smile on his face. The person that behaved like a total ass? The owner! OWNER. Did you read that correctly?
Yes, the man with the millions, the one who doesn't have to run down the field and get knocked over by three burly men, showed his ass by flipping the bird to the Buffalo Bills, the players, the coaches, the FANS. And he didn't just throw one middle finger out in the air. Oh no, TWO...he double F*U'd the whole stadium. And then....oh yes, THEN, he proceeded to shake them in the air, over the balcony of his posh seats, for a couple of minutes, at least.
I'm not exactly offended because of his middle fingers. I'm no goody two shoes and have been known to fly off the handle with a finger or even some choice words. I'm not going to lie to you. However, I tend to not do this to millions of fans....or at meetings....or at work....
The NFL fined him a hefty fee, 1/4 of a million dollars. Good. Now, what else?? I mean, honestly, would we still have representation if we flipped double birds at our agents? Hell no! Would people want to buy our books if they heard we flipped off other authors that made it to the bestseller list? I don't think the owner should still be an owner if you want to know the truth. I don't know how all of the behind the scenes business stuff works for NFL, but I do know that flipping off a stadium full of people is not good business practice.
What kind of role model is that for our athletically inclined children? People want to know what happened to our generation of kids....well....LOOK AT THE EXAMPLES THEY HAVE!
I for one, will never be a fan of the Titans nor will I buy any of their product logos. I lost all respect for the entire team because of the actions of one man. Is that fair? No. Is it how the world works? Yup. Should an 86 year old man that owns a football team think of such repercussions? Absolutely!
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