I made two very big decisions last week and so I'm unplugging this week to take a mini break. I'm going to go camping, possibly talk my husband into a trip to the aquarium and try to be at rest with these two things:
1) I exert way too much energy, thought, time and sacrifice for the sake of others and therefore stuff my own creativities, desires and wants into a "later" pile that never seems to be addressed. The only person that can change that is me. It's time to do it. It's really hard, okay? I am a natural people-pleaser. Even if I don't know you. I feel sorry for telemarketers when my husband hangs up on them. Yes, I am that girl.
2) I'm sending my 22 month old son to Texas with his sisters to visit grandparents. The princesses are used to this annual trip. He isn't. I'm not used to him going. But I desperately need it. I needed it six months ago. Honestly. Does that mean I'm a horrible parent? Thank God for grandparents if I am. So, this kind of has to do with (1) but it's also a whole other thing. I can't remember not chasing this monster around. I can't recall a time that I wasn't saying "NO" or "Go to your ROOM!" or "Stop CLIMBING!" (That's a new one that I could really live without). I need to miss him. Yanno?
These decisions obviously kind of suck. They're selfish. They really suck. And CJ has been so much of a KING to me lately. He really deserves a little time without the kids and more time with the woman he fell in love with lots of years ago.
So...since I will be unplugged for a week-please leave in the comments any links to special posts because by the time I get back I will have over 1000 to read and I don't know if I can commit to all of that. Sorry...more selfishness. But, just to be nice I'll schedule a week of re-posts. Excitement, overflowing, or what?!
But this is FOR you!